♥ Z-Ryn ♥

Fcuk! I get like soo irritated uh..URgh!! C'mon dearest people..No offence to other people uh..So please get clear that Haziq Fauzi is MY PROPERTY  get it  straight alright?Probably that some people know that he is mine but STIL FLIRT! *seriously mintak muka kene pecah*so yeah..get it huh? dont dare alright? Dont misjudge by thinking that i broke up huh? If it happens it will stated there..Dont assume okay? You want to do school stuffs,go ahead..But dont go BEYOND! coz u may think that im not there to witness is..But frankly dont try me..People who knows me well noe wat i meant if i say HE'S MINE...i just dunt wanna say ur name about it...He's aren't a emo guy..if he is he is still my property..its just between school and thats it..get it?? Im stated it the truth right now? you wanna flirt can..not to him..or even Izuwan is available..go for him...Dont make me HATE you...im telling u this alright...Dont..or else..you can do whatever you want with the other EMO guys..if you want,i could give you my ex boyfren of mine who is EMO guy..Dont fall for him cause he have changed..Its my EFFORTS of changing him not you..!!

Dont ever think of STEALING this PROPERTY OF MINE..Cause i will HUNT YOU DOWN!!

*I MEANT IT!!*

Fcuk! TIred sia!!! Wth!!

Damn Asss!! hahaha! im like so fcuking tired can? yeah! WorkWorkWork..Hais!!

So sick and tired if working..Aiyooo..But what to do?

I have 10 more months to go...Hahah!! So what?

At least get my pay..

As time goes by!! Im like so excited i unt know why..
I guess my r/s is going further..baby going 18 this year.Probably its a better yr for me i guess?

So baby! Please get ur Bike license! While for me its gonna be long time for me to get a car grr!!

I have to wait till i finish sch?

Wth!!

Baby! please hurry!! im sick taking bus n mrt..

Durh!

So yeah...=)

I miss babylove..*sadnesss*

But i love him loads sia!! Buhooo!

i know im talking crap! grr!!

And how was my Outfit? Nice?

haha ..Thanks to my beloved "Mom In Law"

haha...

And the most shocking for me is when she msn me..

" Next time when anty go out found new baju i buy for you"

I was like super *speechless* can?

didnt expect her to say tat la sia..haha

Guess what? I miss BABYLOVE..!! *sobs*

Happy 7th Monthsary baby!! So gonna say that this month in the best month ever! Yessa!! It is because i spend $100 plus yesterday with baby..Coz we never spend and have much fun before..So after i finish working,i met him at Eunos Mrt and before that i brought him a Chocolate cake and Tiramisu..I know he gonna love it and indeed...he is soo happy with it..Then headed to Wild Wild Wet with babylove and i brought "something" to wear..hahah it coz $30 bucks..and there we go,having soo much fun! from lazy river,to waterworks,and to Tsunami..It was super great!!! we shout we laugh! it is soo much fun..! and after that we went to eat at Pizza hut..But trust me guys..dont go to wild wild wet pizz hut..it sux!! My gawd....No Casher,No tray and pizz wait for 45 Mins..Wth! we regretted but have no choice..after that we wash up and we go and play Bowling!! For the first time we play 3 games lah sey!! hahaha!! Fun per!! and after the games,, we headed to Pasir ris Park to play Bunga Api..i know its so childish but i miss my childhood..hahaha.. And we headed home when it is 9 plus...I love it!!

i love him!! And i love him soo much!!Happy 7th Monthsary baby!! i have soo much fun with you!! Muacks!!

Helloo Peeps! It seems that i cant upload pictures..IDK why..
But its okay...I could just express it with words..
Been so happy lately with baby..But it seems to crash down the drain..But i manage to handle it with care and patience..I love you..
And i realised that after i fight with baby today when he is letting me go,i cant stop crying..Tears keep flowing...I text him while he is eating.I have no appetite to eat..Im too sad..My heart is breaking into million pieces...But deep inside my heart,i know he still need me..Its only that we usually fight..
But we need each other..I cant let him go...
But i try to calm myself just now..And i love him sooo much.! and ALOT!
And he came back to me.! the ring that he took it off is with him...
I didnt for a guy till this much..
But for him is worse..
By he leaving me really makes me suffers..I nearly wanna pass out..
But i control myself not too!
I miss him!
I Love Him!
I want to be with him!
I SWEAR! I LOVE HIM MORE THAN OTHER GUYS!
I never love a guy this much..I do cry for my Ex's..But not as hard as him..
I SWEAR I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF HE LEAVES ME!
i know i sound crazy..! But i will do ANYTHING for my love..Even die!
But if he is gone,its the end of me..
I cant move on..
AND I REALLY MEANT IT!

Lastly,
I wanna thank god that baby is still with me..i really thank god soo much!!

Hello lovely people!! wehee~

currently now at workplace..have tons of work to do but im so tired to do so..So im taking a take 5 break..haha..

being so sick lately wth!!

so nothing happening to my life that much..

everyday is just a normal routine for me..Work,school,work,school..

thats my day..getting so bored okay!

i only have saturdays to have a time with baby and on SUNDAY is my my REST DAY!! have too!

or else im gonna be on MC on Monday! i cant afford to have any MCs anymore..im cutting it down actually.haish...

so far so good in my work but tired and sick! URGH!

I HATE doing my job if my head are spinning round and round so IRRITATING OKAY! my GOD!

So gtg now..

need to head back to my work..

lovely people are loved by me! wehee!

miss all my gfs!!

and my bF of coz! teheee~

Hey guys! hais..WORK!!! Arggh!! Can cry sia!! im crying like mad now..(bedek uh) so currently now at my workplace doing nothing! urgH! im replacing my small girl Syakirah as she is having her sch today..so im sitting at her office..Oh my its soo booring!! nothing to do just sitting down..supposingly im not suppose to  use the internet but u see,we still do break the rules what..hahah. I prefer sitting in my own office where i can do my stuffs..here there is nothing much to do sia...haiyoo..every thursday will be my boredom day at work aiyooo..haha..the only thing good in my office is when there is no CAMERA..but her place have camera..aiyooo..but cant use office phone to call my baby sia..WTH..Its oklah..he is studying now..But im here writing my bloggie..haha..Boredom at work place..Weekends is coming..Projects and Assignments....So meeting my babylove this Sat after he went for Check up and buying his electric guitar and after that i have to start early for my projects...So that i can have more time spending with babylove...Wehee!!7th Monthsary is coming soon! im like super excited can?Hahax..Soo excited what coz its like the longest for us..Weheeee!!! I loike!

We fate to be together..As we go on,we realised that we never wanna even to let go of each other's hand even for a second..We just love each other soo much and we will never be seperated..

God knows how much we need each other..

I cant lose him neither will he..

we need each other for life support..

i love him

Who is Haziq Fauzi..

So much love,so little time....

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

(08.01.10)

I know its abit of outdated for me to update about my birthday..Hahaha

Actually i would to thank the people who make my birthday a success...! thanks guys! Eventhough i get smudged with my birthday cake WTH...!!! hahaha...

But its fun...!

Its was great when all my love ones were there to celebrate with me..But some couldnt make it but its okay i understand infact...i love you guys!! muacks!

Especially to my Bf,My brother and my Sisters..thanks guys!

Muacks!

So baby have been helping me since morning that day so yeah..and he have mix well with my family

so im FREE!

i mean that no need to lie anymore...yeah2!!

im allowed to go out with him..But not always uh...

Still have curfew hor!!

Oh well...=)

My beloved sweetheart

My brothers

(must credits to GF Nysha)

My sister(ayu)

When he gave me the birthday present..Awww So sweet..*melts*

My presents..LOL..

Mostly from Baby...Hahaha,,,

Thanks Baby,Nysha,Wan Snr,Sod and Rashid..Thanks alot!!

OK..

So the reason i did not update is because up busy with work!!

Chey!! Working gal shey!!

Hahaha..

Actually yeah

So im like bz with Admin work..

So i have not time to update

As im In Trainee-ship in Office

so i have to do alot of stuffs uh..

So monday and tuesday is booring to me coz i have my Senior to do

but today i handle everything WHOA!

HAHA

but i MANAGE it

only thing you have to do things fast and have to remember what things you have to do 1st

so i have to clear my desk to be a nicer one infact..LOL

haha neatly on Saturday coz it's halfday...

So yeah..ahahah..

and so moving on now.....

I miss my BF alot haha!

Yeah..He is sick..=(

i hope he is okay..I love you baby!! Weee~

But working here makes my day goes faster so i will miss baby more after and our r'ship going faster

so yeah

we are like gping to 7 months?

hahaa

Yeah..

Longest for both of us...I hope till the end..Coz i love him forever..LOL

Parents both side have approved..Alhamdullillah...

So happy can??

Only waiting for the time in like 8 years maybe? *Chey!!*

hahaha...

So i will always pray hard for us...=)

I wanna be with you because i love you soo much..=)

*huggies!!!*

This Post is quit hurting and saddening..Its its too wordy..if u guys dont wanna read it just fcuk off! today is a really fcuking day for me as i had a really bad luck day..1st,my ez link card have gone misplaced and its not in my wallet..and i have to take out the coins..tat is given by baby in the morning,,but all is gone after i board the bus to the interchange..planning to sell my Levi's Jeans so that i could get $50.but indeed it was so dissapointing as i have to buy then i could get 50 for the jeans..but its hopeless and i left the jeans at side of the road..coz i did not hi vomit and iave the time to rush back home as im running down to school to meet him.i vomt at the side walk coz im too weak to walk under the hot sun coz i have no money to take a bus or a cab..NONE!  text him tat im sick..He came by to meet me under the track..Seeing him is happy..Hopping to hug him tat im save in his hands..But what do i get?  HARD PUSH AND TIGHT SLAP that nearly make me fall down to cement..i cant control it..My head are realy spinning i cant think..he have SLAP me on my head..my head is spinning till now..coz it is a very hard impact on me..and things go on dragging..Being Ignored..i feel as though he is running away from me after i have given all my love and trust and support to him last night..and what i get a return was a slap and a push not loved..what i want was love from you but indeed i feel hatred by you..Hurting...but i cant express it to him..coz i know he will get mad and make the decision to leave me as he would say that he have given me trouble and making me shed tears..but i dont care..what i care the most was his heart..Non other than that...i will sacrifice for him even im sick..eventhough i would faint or die..But my love for him is strong..he may not understand this..But i do...I dunt care..what i matter was his heart..he can think im too sensitive..but im not.im just being concerned..i would anything to make him happy..to make him feel good around me..i will always find ways to create or buy him things for him to show that i love him..he may appriciate it..But once we fight,he would break the promise that he have given me...even giving 1001 chances i m find with it..but you must me relevant...I want to be ur girlfreind whom you love soo much..and caring for her showing her the love..i do get what i wanted..but this year it turn out different way you acted so different way..it started in the morning..u seems not to be the same when you stepped into my house..i have the feel that your heart is running away from me...unlike mine..still waiting to be loved....But you told me that you still loing me...But you REGRET having me in ur life..that is so painful..you stabbed me tru my heart..i bleed..you start to change when you get the job offer..i agreed that u want to work..yes i do..i agree with you..im supporting you..u are too bz having too many commitments..i understand that you wanna study..yes..that is a good thing..im proud of you..but we could only spend an hr a day and youre gone.Busy with classes and ended late and you went for meetings and went home late..cant talk on the phone..the problem now is that we have lack of communication..you say eventhough we are busy but we should have time for each other..A call away or text..but a text by me makes you feel irritated..coz im disturbing you..i feel alone...i wanna scream but i cant..but most importantly i still do love you alot..But im worried about you...Your feelings..I wanna be secured again..dont make me feel inscure by you..i dunt get the love you given me...

p.s: No matter how hard it is im still loving you the same as i do...Loving you soo much!!

If you think im interfering im so sorry..Coz im just scared u get cheated..but u told me tat u are not so i guess im sorry..you get cheated once and i dont want that to happen again..Im sorry..i only wanna help..but u scolded me by saying not to interfere..i feel soo hurt i never get so hurt before..you may think that im too sensitive..You say that im not going to have time for you..But indeed now u are the one have no time for me..You never know that im always finding time for us to spend time together..but u never know..And even  u say i have no time or you..Im so damn hurt..You are busy with the work that you wanted..Yes i know you wanna work..that is wat i told u earlier last time..I did..But you too engrossed with big money..Yes..! Its tempting..! Its BIG money..but for me i DONT TRUST big money comes fast..you have to put in more efforts in it...And extra work get more incomes..Im no longer trusting BIG MONEY in just a few days..Im just doing my best for you..Im not interfering right now..U are big enuf to think right..im just giving you suggestions..the choice is urs..what you think is right just go ahead for it baby dear..im not angry..just go with what you want sayang...You want it you go for it sayang..=)